I know exactly what you mean. There is no other way to describe the euphoria that overtakes you when a top gives you his load. The feeling it gives me is better than my own orgasm that is why bottoms like to take so many loads without cumming. I like a top who is very demonstrative while he is cumming either verbally or physically so I know the moment and can relish every second. Afterword I am so thankful and happy. I always thank my tops for their cum.